That still lingers on

That still lingers on
Every breath I breathe is sharp
Every heartbeat I feel is dull
I am completely drained of life
And of death, I am completely full
I have to shine a light
I have to tell my story
Yet sharing all this darkness seems like it might be the end of me
I try to comprehend how I could have survived this gore and horror
When simply recalling it all
Seems to have much more power
My mind betrays me because I don’t just see, I feel the memory
all of a sudden I’m right back in it
I have fallen down a rabbit hole where a lifetime goes by
But it’s only been a minute
When I come back the world is different than it was before
And there’s a new layer of pain
That I just can’t ignore
But underneath the weight of debilitating devastation
there’s a thread of strength that keeps fighting without hesitation
I will push on, push through every prison
I will climb every mountain
I will fight for my freedom like it is my mission
I will hold onto the truth that still lingers on
That still lingers on