My Bubba (Part 2)

I have this friend, his name is Conner and he doesn't know I have a small nickname for him, its Bubba, he reminds me of a big brother honestly and I love him so much I always feel like such a bother to him though, but maybe it doesn't bother him, I can't help but feel like I do though as I get anxious when he doesn't respond within 24 hours or while the time that I too am online but i understand that he too has a life and work so it can't be all about me and I need to remember that but when I see he's still online and not responding I feel like I annoy him or that he hates me or maybe that he blocked me I can't help it it's just part of who I am I don't want to push him away and I don't mean to push people away and he's the one that stayed by my side the only one that stayed so if I lose him, I don't know what I would do with myself, hes my big brother in my eyes. So tell me brother, am I a burden to you? or do you really want me in your life?