Oh My pain My parasite

Oh My Pain My parasite

Oh my pain
you never seize to go away
no matter how hard I try
to make you go
you keeping residing in me
like a parasite
that have found
a host
I have fed you all my happiness

I will drink
I will party
I will smoke
I will take drugs
I will gamble
I will have sex
as worthless a liability
will be to you
all these things are only worthless
all these things will add more parasite to me
and they keep eating me up

My light
oh my light
you have failed
to shine
the fear in a crawlers mind
to walk suddenly appears
when you try to shine
because the parasite has eaten
my courage

My Courage
Oh my courage
you have been eaten
this parasite has eaten
you up
I only get to pick up
your pieces
just like
when a fragile thing
falls to the floor

My body
my soul
my peace
my health
has been shattered by this parasite
like a child that eats a sweet thing up to the extent that they eat what was used to seal it
you have left me with nothing

I smile
I laugh
I talk
I play
I look healthy and fresh
but deep down
there is something eating me up
I have become so worthless that I have been dumped like a trash bag by the ones I call family.

They have neglected me
I have been treated like someone who has AIDS or cancer and is waiting the day he will face the Lord for his own sins on Earth
I know when that time comes
they will all act like they care
writing long messages on social media
a befitting burial ceremony for me
but I ask will all these matter when the parasite has already completed it's mission.

By Nelson Ayatse