Irrelevant

I'm drowning in emotion
Trying to hide what I can
As each day passes it becomes harder to stand!
What is wrong with me?
I'm hated by all
My life is a wrecking ball
Just when I think I'm getting back on track
Something pushes me 8 steps back
I try and try
Truly I do
I want to be happy like all of you
I don't want to have to force a smile to get through a day
Sound super sad when I say I'm okay
I make you think nothing bothers me today
When in reality I'm on the edge and I'm about to break
Death sounds nicer and nicer each minute of each day
Who would even miss me If my life ended?
All I'm good for is a laugh at my expense
Guess my feeling are just irrelevant