Oh' help me god

Why was there no-one
None in my doorstep
Alone and some what hated
I crept back into my own skin
Waiting I lurked the hallways
Back and forth from my room
Watching and waiting to see of anybody showed
Thinking that that would be soon
I'm sorry I missed you the depths of my soul
Empty I wanted my spirit being low
There's only one hope a disposition of the sort
If hell was real I buried myself in deep high waters
Til there was nothing left but air
I'm sound proof for no one here's my allibies
There a leak in the kitchen sink that gets more attention then I
Maybe no-one noticed it
But my spirit is in tears
I had to go to make out of all those years
We didn't see it coming being all to my humble self
I left thinking I could of but what's the use I had no body else
I lived in silence my headcringing clear
The depths of silence as it brought forth my tears
I'm not dead now my spirit rings true I just sit around still wondering what to do
So god help me I was just a kid
I really didn't know what the he'll they did