I want to live

Why am I so broken
So emotionally frozen
It's not like it matters
Would anyone notice
If I disappeared without warning
If I gave in to this hurting
If I grow too tired
Of being a shell of a person
Would anyone care
It's my cross to bare
No one said life would be easy
That life would be fair
I scream but no sound escapes
I am so tired of living afraid
To many feelings
Leaves me in a pitiful state
So I suffer in silence
Always running and hiding
I torture myself
I lash out with violence
Would anyone mind
If I were to die
If I gave up the fight
Would anyone cry
I need you now
Speak up be loud
Help me fight back
Please show me how
I dont want to quit
I want to exist
I want to find reason
I need more than this
So please take my hand
Tell me that I can
Please pick me up
Please help me to stand
I want to forgive
I have more to give
Help me to fight
I want to live
I want to live
I want to be
I have more to give
I am important I am me.
I have value
I have love
I can help you
I am enough