YOU WERE MY JOURNEY - NOT MY DESTINATION...

You can revel in your toxic world all by your lonesome
From this day forward; living the life
Of the "morals of an alley - cat"
Which tickles your fancy and makes you feel so manly...

I have suffered more than my fair share
Of your abusive behaviour;your distasteful cynicism
Your sarcasm and your biting insults in overdose...

It's pretty evident that I'm only a mere convenience
Whom you feel the need to "Own and Control"

You treat me as though
I am a flea - infested stray dog who you can throw
A juicy poisoned bone to;every now and again...
And I should just smile from cheek to cheek...
With no questions asked...!

So puffed with pride - You Are...
You think you're the world's best prize
That if you say to me JUMP! I should enthusiastically ask
How high...?
Everything always has to be "your way or the highway
Where "MEEK ME" is mistaken for WEAK ME...
Who has to put up with this pathetic and undeserving lifestyle
In constant despondency;always questioning my worth...!

Oh No More I Say...! I choose not to be foolishly swayed away
By your pretentious love anymore;or the truckloads
Of your crafty lies;nor your false promises to this day...
With your brilliantly - mastered manipulations
Which has "question marks" and" red flags "attached...!

I've wisened up now to your double - standards...!
You were such a maestro at it;you deserved an award
For your masquarade;I guess I didn't give you enough credit there...!
I simply cannot digest anymore of this...

I'm walking away so I can see and experience "Better Days..."
You've become quite transparent of late.You have lost
You "MAGIC..." and "I - THE DESIRE..."
And have sunken instead; into sheer boredom
Fuelled in frustration overload...feverish with an inner - rage
Which is brewing up so strong that at any given moment;
I might emit it like such as a volcano...These unhealthy feelings
Has brought me to "that swim or sink situation..."
Of a piercingly painful realisation;that you were no less
"Than a Colossal Waste of My Precious Time"
Where all of my energies would be drained
In worthless efforts and fruitless endeavours
By building my castle of dreams on a shaky foundation
In a fool's paradise...!

"Trust Burned..."
"Harsh Lessons Learned..."
So for now it's gonna be
A period of an unavoidable ocean of tears...
Loneliness laced with haunting memories
And sleep - deprivation...
And on healing...I shall look back in deep retrospection...
Choosing not to burn in the flame of regrets nor self - blame...I know that I gave it my all...!

I consider myself; a rising victim
With a vacant and shattered heart;and a tattered soul...
Pretty - much like a walking corpse...!
But yet...
So positively psyched with grit and determination in over - drive...!
I shall soon be ready to look at the world with "fresh eyes"
So from hereon...
It's going to be...
"A WHOLE NEW CHAPTER..."
"A WHOLE NEW ME..."
"A WHOLE NEW VIBE..."
Nourished in some well - deserved "SELF LOVE..."

The end of the road has been in clear sight
For quite some time;one of us had to take
 "THAT VERY FIRST STEP...!"
It's time for YOU to go your way...
And for me to go "MINE..."
You and I...
Were not meant for "DO OR DIE..."
But fated instead;for a sojourn...
To taste the bitter - sweet
Then to depart in "SAD GOODBYES...!


ZAHEERA SHAIK ALLI
29539 SONWABO STREET EXTENSION 11
TSAKANE GAUTENG
SOUTH AFRICA.
CELL: (+278)0823934743 or(+276) 0684327861.