What i see

I can write about you
If you want
just break me inside
activate a capsule
to the victor goes the spoils
just like before
It feels like a new religion
you come as an epiphany
as I've never known you

come and see my blind cane
leisurely walking me
come and see what's mine
a secret in everyone's heart
a tumor divided
shoved from my breathing end  
to whatever I wished for  
became my fear
the other side of me
a drenched spark
splashed by hate
clay molded to preserve me

a kindred from you
the first wave of truth
code of silence
came packed in dead asleep
last words, a swan song
on a broken record skipping notes
hinting where you float
in mysterious ways

up in the arena's stands
a finite to farewell
a slim chance of a hello  
I'm lost in more
I have the big dipper to guide
still, I lost your address

lost for words  
I've longed to tell you
I've been lost & found in  you 
this is a chapter's end as I see it 
never mind what I feel