He awakened me

writing in my journal
i found a big betrayal
i blamed her,gave her guilt
he awakened me,how i felt
my mind gave me a wrong vision
he lead me to fall in depression
i was the wrong one
i was the overthinker
she was honest
i destroyed the nest
the love was legitimate
she got the incriminate
i want to apologize
texting he is it wise
i turned my back first
i`m in a deadly thirst
my soul is betrayed
from its master who blamed