Scrambled and Deflated

Mind scrambled can't even think straight
All that's coming through is the self hate
Is there a time I did anything right
All this anger comes out when I write
Put everything on my phone or paper
So I can come back and read it later
Nobody told me that life would be easy
They shoulda told me people are sleazy
Never woulda introduced myself
If I knew what it'd do to mental health
I fucking hate the world and it knows it
That's why it threw me into the tiger pit
Hoping I'd fail and it'd crumble me
But you wouldn't believe the shit I see
Even if you saw it with your own eyes
It'd take you a second to even realize
That that shit really just happened
Said you had a bad life but you cappin
That's why it seemed to blow your mind
When I told you all about my rough time
Rappers talk bout how daddy wasn't there
I wish mine would just fucking disappear
At least I wouldn't hold all this damn hatred
As if it was something fucking sacred
Hate my mind and I hate my life
Explains why I don't have a wife
I'm a damaged product that you created
I'm a shell of myself a little deflated