I wanna know

It's coded ingrained in secret.
I should have known .
I would be throwing stones.
I know everything I ever did.
Why am I erasing everything I know?
I'm a little less then sold. I've gonna around and found out the truth of the story's told.
Now the blood runs cold. I had high hopes. But I haven't become the man I want to be.
My blood ran cold. I took it back.
Can you tell me what part of me was mine and what part of me was yours and why I didn't ever get a fucking say!!!
I hope you know I'm driving the show now. It's not your game. It's a roulette and anyway could sell me to a better way to breathe.
I've got no where to run no where to go. Living in ruins of what was said and told. No one's in control.  
Can you hear me through the white noise.
Can you hear me kid.
Synthetic suicide.
Artificial cyanide.
Right to the brain.
I could be soaked in the neon glow and I still wouldn't be anything.  
You can tell me all day I mean something for the broken youth. But I'm an anti vice on the evening. News.
I refuse to be a statistics.
Mother fucker how do you be a ship when your supposed to sink.
I don't wanna be me.
Can you hear me through the white noi.,.