Main marna chahta hoo

Main marna chahta hoo,
Jeene ki koshish bhi karta hoo,
Magar himmat har baar toot jaati hai,
Ek aisi jagah aisi cheez bechta hoo,
Jispe mujhe khud bhi bharosa nahi,
Na jagah na cheez par,
Itna jhooth bola hai zindagi me,
Main sach bhi bolna chahta hoo,
Kyu hai aisa ki log aate hain, haste hain,
Apni baatein batate hai , fir chhord ke chale jaate hain,
Kyu me akela reh jaata hoo,
Aur fir ek khayaal man me aata hai,
Main marna chahta hoo,
Lekin main jeene ki koshish bhi karta hoo,
Itni baar sapne dekhe hai zindagi me,
Aur baar unhe toot te hue bhi dekha hoo,
Koi ek sahaj kaam bhi dhang se nahi hua ,
Ye baat dil me rakhkar aur ek khayal man me liye fir so jaata hoo,
Main marna chahta hoo,
Lekin main jeene ki koshish bhi karta hoo,