Acting okay

I smile you ask how am I doing I say I'm fine and then walk away as all the memories flash through my mind I want to scream I want to cry slowly dying inside I let my life get so out of control I don't have a faith that I can fix it no more I've lost all hope everything I ever loved went away and all they say is it'll be okay I used to think the same until day after day nothing changed I quit praying I quit hoping and I started to just numb the pain each day that goes by is like a replay everybody around is so fake they smile in your face and talk bad about you when you turn away there's no loyalty sooner or later they all change I guess you can say I slowly through my life away