Drove mad

Twisting turning in my bed .I cannot seem to get out of my head .Bad dreams the darkness in mi mind .Why does my past haunt me all the time.From bad touchs from when small to a ring as a teen.Being hit and hurt screamed at for 21 years I'm out I'm free but it doesn't leave me.To many people in the to store. Try to focus on the floor. A male walking by humming a tune I jump feeling  inpending doom. Dr goes to touch my arm I flitch as if he is going to do harm.Do not sleep do to fear of reliving evil in my head the parts of my life that I dread.I can't be happy for fear of the bad .My mind is broken I've been drove mad.