If only you knew

If only you knew.

If only you knew how much I still love you,
how I still want to adore
and shower you in affection.

If only you knew the effort,
If you knew the time
If only,
If you knew how the times you ignored me,
Put me into a deep deep hole

If only you had known,
How I was suffering for the sake of you
Waiting
And waiting
For the response I never got
The response which had never been, realized

If only you knew
The love I still hold in my heart
Begrudgingly against my throat
The crimson red liquid which flows down my neck
As I hold this grudge of love against it

The air
Slowly, becoming harder to capture
The light I'm my eyes,
Slowly fading
The love I once had
Finally dissipating