Beat the unholy

Can you hear it? My mind racing, it's everywhere,  but where I am lately,

I try to control it. A part of me stolen, can't seem to catch it, for it keeps going and going, making me feel like I've lost it!

What am I feeling, what do I want, what am I going for, what have I lost. Pain surrounds me, trying to be happy, but the agony beholds me, and abruptly stops me!

Suffocating and controlling, I lose sight of things, my body becomes anxious, taken over me. Trying to control, my very being, yet sucked into a hole, of desperation!

Stop, just stop it already, I've taken so much, and feel so empty. Leave it alone, let me forget, make it easier, is my only request!

Yet still haunted, controlled and taken, when will it end, when will I stop hurting. I'm holding on, but just barely, I'm trying my best, to beat the unholy!