Its expected

Ive been big and ive been small ive tried this hair cut ive tried that clothes ive done everything i couldve ever done to myself and still im not enough for anyone. I must be all of these new things but there really isnt anything special about me anymore ive changed over such a short period of time its whats expected now. Everyones so used to me not being okay its just my normal attitude now. “Yeah shes always like this” “yeah shes always tired” but no one ever notices when im drained and sick and i cant do it anymore its just my “normal attitude”, whats expected of me.