5:34 am

maybe I miss you so much
because I know I won't be able to
have what we had ever again,
maybe I can't let you go
because I know you were
probably the only love
that would ever love me back,
maybe I miss you so much
because I just want to feel that way again
how you and I were in April,
or maybe I really do miss you
your stupid jokes
your endearing love for bookstores
your gentle teasing
the way you countered every remark I made
the way you comforted me every time I felt uneasy
the way I could talk with you for hours
and never get tired of hearing you talk on about the simplest of things
okay
maybe I do miss you
just a little