ThereHereNow: If You Had Only Seen Me Then….



There, squatting at the precipice of abysmal dark chaos—
squatting massive weight in atlasian obeisance;
precipice-edged graying matters not;
abysmal dark as nothing with existence showed;
chaos for no fractality emergence henceforth grew;
there, for therethen, thenwhere, wherewhen, and whenthere werenot;—
awaiting something anything athing…
…to theresound, thenappear, wherehappen, or whenilluminate,—or
becoming in manifestations unknowable, to: stirring
this great mass of chaotic swirling circles,
creating unnameables, all wholly a’ whirring,
massive, symbiotic, whirling skin-prickles,
spawn some unidentifiables sight a’ blurring

There, flapping my arms as if to deny chaos its power,
flapping my arms as wings…for I will my psyche to flower…
to Recover not that that’s lost;
to Recover that that is and shall be—
at whatever payment or ferryman fee—
thatever and evenwhat the cost….
Chaos bowing to fractality as Murmir ‘s shoreline grew;
there, for wherewhen, whenthere, therethen, and thenwhere herenot
dare not be…awaiting something anything athing…
to appearwhen, happenthere, illuminatethen, or soundwhere, or
become, as in some manifestations now known as stirring
this great massive ordering of concentric circles
identifying named ones yet each a’ whirring;
wellsprings of fountainheads twirl dewy-hair-trickles
spawning further identified ones whose countenance is a’ blurring

There, threatening further flapping to decrease domains of chaostasy
as-if flapping alwaysalready, do upraised arms hold psyche’s flowering power—
to contain that that is done;
to retell that that is;
to retain that that shall be;
noteven worrying over ghouls or goons—
thisnow and everywhen paid karmically:
fecundity fractals diving deeply in Mnemosyne’s pools…
There, for wherewhen, whenthere, therethen, and thenwhere couldnot…
..ifever knownwas be…awaiting something anything athing…
to wherehappen, whenilluminate, theresound, or thenappear, or
now manifesting in storyteller revisionings: spurring
this massively pooled cultural edifice of re-circlings
illustrating countless structures each one in flux a’ whirring,
archetypal beginnings unfurling—meeting eons of edges of sickles;
birthing endless recombinings; are in cyclical visages a’ blurring

Thereherenow, hover I drawing essence no matter chaos—
soaring surveying realms mysterious;
levitating surround teeming with nows to-be;
diving deeplyer than oceans are known-to-be;
eroseyes envisioning lovescapes—impressively
reconstructions of fratachaos fill me in Valhalla…
Who then shall ennobled embolded join?
Accepting hands of Heimdall to perilously cross
the bridge of Bifrost and forego ended Ragnaröks…
there, for therethen, thenwhere, wherewhen, and whenthere shouldnot…
…between before becoming…await something anything athing…
…to illuminatethen, soundwhere, appearwhen, or happenthere,—or
found disseminated as cultural zeitgeistian relics, to hearts: bestirring
deep chasms traversed as underchaos spits perks: full fractals,
unnaming renamed nameables, in total rhythmic whirring….
Obversive collaborator, interpenetrating, furling sole-tickles,
to-gatherings, like sprinklings unidentifiable, do visions induce a’ blurring

About this poem

Explication of Thereherenow I do not ever expect anyone to read my writings. I always wonder when there is silence. What could I do better to communicate it more effectively. How can I unburden loved ones reading it through different word usages... If I didn't resort to using the invented word pairs, I fear it might have been a 200-page poem. What I have undertaken to write in Thereherenow was an exercise for my brain and a challenge to overcome. It is not standard poetry writing at all. Most poetry professors would call it balderdash or junk because they would not understand it. It is a post-graduate school poetry writing poem. I am going to take a quick gander at the amount of words I "invented" for this poem. Their invention proves critically necessary for otherwise or elsewise each line including them would need to be another couple pages long to get at the meanings inherent in their usages. 36 words, but some are as simple as pluralizations of recombining, or recombinings, and that is just a matter of the dictionary for Word not encountering that word use by me prior. However, atlasian is a new conjunction of Atlas, and is not to be confused with the software or computer code company Atlassian. (I looked it up to see) Atlas being the Titan holding the weight of the world on his shoulders. Chaostasy another new conjunction of Chaos from whose empty space the original Greek deities of Gaea (Earth), Eros (Desire), and Tartarus (Underworld) emerged long ago. Chaostasy is the ecstasy of experiencing Chaos at the brink of psychic annihilation. 1b) There, squatting at the precipice of abysmal dark chaos— squatting massive weight in atlasian obeisance; precipice-edged graying matters not; abysmal dark as nothing with existence showed; chaos for no fractality emergence henceforth grew; 2b) There, flapping my arms as if to deny chaos its power, flapping my arms as wings…for I will my psyche to flower… to Recover not that that’s lost; to Recover that that is and shall be— at whatever payment or ferryman fee— thatever and evenwhat the cost…. Chaos bowing to fractality as Murmir ‘s shoreline grew; 3b) There, threatening further flapping to decrease domains of chaostasy as-if flapping alwaysalready, do upraised arms hold psyche’s flowering power— to contain that that is done; to retell that that is; to retain that that shall be; noteven worrying over ghouls or goons— thisnow and everywhen paid karmically: fecundity fractals diving deeply in Mnemosyne’s pools… 4b) Thereherenow, hover I drawing essence no matter chaos— soaring surveying realms mysterious; levitating surround teeming with nows to-be; diving deeplyer than oceans are known-to-be; eroseyes envisioning lovescapes—impressively reconstructions of fratachaos fill me in Valhalla… Who then shall ennobled embolded join? Accepting hands of Heimdall to perilously cross the bridge of Bifrost and forego ended Ragnaröks… 1e) there, for therethen, thenwhere, wherewhen, and whenthere werenot;— awaiting something anything athing… …to theresound, thenappear, wherehappen, or whenilluminate,—or becoming in manifestations unknowable, to: stirring this great mass of chaotic swirling circles, creating unnameables, all wholly a’ whirring, massive, symbiotic, whirling skin-prickles, spawn some unidentifiables sight a’ blurring 2e) there, for wherewhen, whenthere, therethen, and thenwhere herenot dare not be…awaiting something anything athing… to appearwhen, happenthere, illuminatethen, or soundwhere, or become, as in some manifestations now known as stirring this great massive ordering of concentric circles identifying named ones yet each a’ whirring; wellsprings of fountainheads twirl dewy-hair-trickles spawning further identified ones whose countenance is a’ blurring 3e) there, for wherewhen, whenthere, therethen, and thenwhere couldnot… …ifever knownwas be…awaiting something anything athing… to wherehappen, whenilluminate, theresound, or thenappear, or now manifesting in storyteller revisionings: spurring this massively pooled cultural edifice of re-circlings illustrating countless structures each one in flux a’ whirring, archetypal beginnings unfurling—meeting eons of edges of sickles; birthing endless recombinings; are in cyclical visages a’ blurring 4e) there, for therethen, thenwhere, wherewhen, and whenthere shouldnot… …between before becoming…await something anything athing… …to illuminatethen, soundwhere, appearwhen, or happenthere,—or found disseminated as cultural zeitgeistian relics, to hearts: bestirring deep chasms traversed as underchaos spits perks: full fractals, unnaming renamed nameables, in total rhythmic whirring…. Obversive collaborator, interpenetrating, furling sole-tickles, to-gatherings, like sprinklings unidentifiable, do visions induce a’ blurring This is what each of the specific temporal/locale logistical elements signify, it is purposeful that they each represent creation beginnings in various cultures/ideologies/rituals/mythologies/religions There = illuminate When = happen Where = appear Then = sound The arrangement below demonstrates the foundational structure of how the four stanzas were organized in temporal/locale logistics, as it pertains to chaos. Setting them out bare and separated in this manner illustrates the two circlings, inner: where to where stanza 2 to stanza 3; and, outer: there to there, stanza 1 to stanza 4. To provide this detail is to illuminate conceptually the process of psyche rebuilding from a there that is nowhere or utter chaos then requiring much cleaning of nuclear winter’s ashes to a where that is in defiance of that chaos when intent on building psyche to a where of magic and mystery as building grows when the builders themselves are multiplied to a there that features large pyramidical structures that when viewed from the place of original diversion of life-giving and psyche-empowering pure flowing river waters becomes-transforms into a lush landscape, a psychescape reclaimed. Stanzas 1 & 4 there then where when then where when there Stanzas 2 & 3 where when there then when there then where The belowlisted are the final combined and presented various ways of representing the couplets of temporal/locale logistical elements. It is alwaysalready understood that among four pairs of repeating couplets there can mathematically and arguably be many more combinations, but those other combinations do not apply to this poem as it was written and so are excluded for that reason alone. You will no doubt have noticed that the pairs start with “There” and end with “there”. In so doing, it presents the paradoxical circling-up-notion of the rhythm of life itself, and the fractality-notion of the complexities of life everinwarder everoutwarder everinbetweener everbeyonder, juxtaposed with the chaos-notion used to move the poem’s changes. It may be easier to grasp what I am getting at if I identify each of the specific locales of ‘there,’ and ‘where’; and the specific temporals of ‘then,’ and ‘when’. This allows for their repetition to become much clearer. It also provides a greater sense of the rhythm that seeks to carry you from one to the next, even if they are rearranged slightly in the second and third stanzas. Thereamong the couplet pairs begin with ‘wherewhen’ and end with ‘thenwhere’. This arrangement then makes of the two inner stanzas yet an additional circling within the larger circling which is only a smidgeon of what happens with fractals. The movements of chaos, from important as ‘precipice of abysmal dark chaos’, ‘chaos for no fractality emergence‘, ‘chaotic swirling circles’ to not as overbearing ‘as if to deny chaos its power’, ‘Chaos bowing to fractality’ and to less important ‘decrease domains of chaostasy’, unto barely even named as ‘fecundity fractals diving deeply’, ‘reconstructions of fratachaos’, ‘Obversive collaborator’ and as a conjunction combining of ‘underchaos’, and an oblique reference as an outcome prophesied in ‘forego ended Ragnaröks’, take you from one stanza to another and do so as a conduit that interlinks and interpenetrates and interconnects you throughout all four stanzas despite the inner circling and outer circling. In this way, chaos is revisioned as the conduit between helixical pairs of DNA, the bridge that connects the pairs, and in my philosophical worldview portrayed in the Helixical Fractality of Life, it connects twelves not pairs, or as one intelligent person pointed out, it is any huge number of endlessness, infinity, eternity, in perpetuum. Coincidentally, it is how I have come from out of the coma to view chaos itself. Therethen = Illuminatesound Thenwhere = Soundappear Wherewhen = Appearhappen Whenthere = Happenilluminate The belownumbered are the four states of beingnesses as changes in each stanza: werenot/herenot/couldnot/shouldnot. These were ideas, concepts, terms, states of beingness, ways of perceiving, ways of thinking, ways of being, ways of seeing, ways of viewing, ways of feeling, ways of sensing that I have had to relearn and recover. Of which in this simple little foursome is packed an immense amount of information. It is as if these are computer codes grabbed from the “Matrix”, each of which identifies an entire cityblock and everything and everyone withinamong wherewhen whenthere therethen thenwhere. 1)Werenot = creation 2)Herenot = perception 3)Couldnot = cognition 4)Shouldnot = intuition 

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Written on February 18, 2022

Submitted by ScottMPotter on April 24, 2022

Modified on March 22, 2023

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Quick analysis:

Scheme AABXCBDEDFDAD GGXHHXCBDEDFDFD AGXXHXIXBDEDADFD AXHHHIXXABDEDADFD
Closest metre Iambic heptameter
Characters 3,292
Words 462
Stanzas 4
Stanza Lengths 13, 15, 16, 17

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