Fog of Calamity

I'm in a fog of calamity too dense to see through. Without God or a family; no sense to be true. I just hurt myself slowly as though not to waste it. Desert myself; lonely. My life? I've erased it. I've chased it away. 'Fraid I'll never make it. I don't care what you say. Grasp your advice and take it. Forsaken. Head's achin'. More pain than I'm faking. I'm taking my time escapin' through rhyme. There ain't no changin' my mind. I'm fine. Leave me alone. I just want to go home but where is that and where is God 'cause I don't even know 'em. And, where I'm at I'm scared of that, but I'm too proud to show 'em. Remember this, remember that wherever I may roam. I know more than that needs to be known. I'm grown, but still I need to be shown how to be on my own. I'm so free, but alone. I'm so "me", but I'm gone. I'm so weak, but I'm strong. I'm offbeat, but I'm on....ain't I?