Positive

I want to be
Filled with grief
But my mind is
Forcing me to be happier.
I want to be
Bursting with anger
But my mind is
Forcing me to enjoy life.
I want to be
Drowning in a sea of
Overwhelming sorrow
But my mind is
Forcing me to be mentally healthy.
I want my heart to be
Torn and ripped to shreds
But my mind is
Forcing me to sew it back together.
I want myself to be
Shattered to pieces
But my mind is
Forcing me to glue myself
Back together.
I want my life to be
Filled with endless agony
But my mind is
Forcing me to be happier than ever.
I want to
Keep the shadows close to my side,
But my mind is
Forcing me to turn on a flashlight.
I want to be
Forever surrounded by this darkness
But my mind is
Forcing the sun to drive it away.
I want to
Forever disappear in this mist
But my mind is
Forcing the wind to blow it away.
I want to
Forever stay in this
Saddened negativity
But my mind is
Forcing me to be positive.