Red Bloody Help (MAJOR TW for self-injury)

I’m getting the help I need.
I’m living
With a red bloody help,
Cutting.
It’s easier,
It hurts,
But that’s the only small price
I have to pay.
I get the physical pain
To distract me from this agony inside.
It’s my helper
And my life supporter,
And if you don’t understand,
Just don’t try to stop me
From getting
The red bloody help
I need to survive.