I'm Closer to Death Than I Thought (TW for mention of su!c!de)

Thoughts of suicide roam free in my head,
Reminding me of the horrors of life.
They keep telling me,
They keep urging me,
That death is the only alternative.
My head is spinning
And my mind is whirling.
My hands are shaking
And I’m trembling violently
As these terrible thoughts control my mind.
My heart is pounding
And tears are falling.
I am drowning in a sea of sorrow,
In an ocean of death,
In a world of darkness.