The Me You'll Never Know

If only you knew the battles I fight
For this one moment by your side
Barely standing, fighting the urge to run away
Desperately searching for the right words to say

Head down, don’t look him in the eye
Don’t let him see you laugh or cry
If he sees the monster lurking inside
You’ll be rejected, cast aside
So you hide like you always hide

What if you saw behind this phantom’s mask?
Do I dare to hope your acceptance will last?
And would you abandon me all alone
If you saw the beast behind these walls of stone?
This taboo side I cannot show  
That's the me you'll never know

If only you knew the bullies I’ve outlasted
A lifetime lived as society’s outcast
Half alive, tattered and torn
Cast adrift in an emotional storm

Shoulders back and stand up straight
Hold your tongue, don’t say the wrong thing
Never let him see who you really are
It guarantees another verbal barb
Another broken piece, another broken heart

What if you saw this disappointed drudge?
Do I dare to dream you wouldn’t judge?
And if my mind should come undone
Would you leave this vampire to burn in the sun?
The highest highs and the lowest lows  
That's the me you'll never know

What if my progress stalls?
If I should falter and fall through
Would you help me through it all
Or would your kindness stall too?

What if you saw that we’re not the same?
Would you leave me to go down in flames?
And what if I can’t be what you wanted?
Would you still stand by my side undaunted?
Could you go toe to toe
With the me you’ll never know?