Dying slow

contemplating
Staring down a barrel
There is no light at the end of these tunnel now that your gone
I gave my all
Some how gave more
When it wasn't enough for you
Cold as ice these metal in my hand
Centered on my glabella
Selfish,
Can not die slowly anymore
Need a way out
Your poison
Toxic in my veins, heart, mind
Drowning, fighting to stay afloat
Panic, anxiety, fear sweeps over
False promises forgotten words
Vows weighting
Pulling me down to a darker abyss
Like weights bound to my ankles
Slowly, light fades in the distance
Blurry haze, darkness, peacefulness
Bang, as the last sound vibrates

                         Alejandro Gutierrez