Suicide letter (Maybe)

Sometimes I feel like I  do not belong here on Earth it getting header and harder to stay true to myself I did not know why I keep on lying to myself It already painful try not to end  it all each and every day should cut myself in the bathtub like Hannah Baker on 13 reasons why maybe it’s a suicide later or maybe it’s not sometimes I can’t tell what I want do was my life I just a dumb ass little nigga on that crazy ass Earth I don’t know why I just end it right now I’m so so sick of that depression playing over and over in my head I’m asking is to stop playing over and over in my head  

Should I do it ? Maybe I just a little ass nigga can’t make up my only damn mind that is all two funny. Maybe I should turn that into a suicidal letter I just so f*ck tired of that I can’t do that no more somebody please help me I don’t want to go I don’t want to kill myself all of that is not me I’m not saying all of that somebody taking over me please please PLEASE make it stop ……… Is stop oh my god is stop I’m so happy that is stop playing over and over again I just thinking for how long it going stop maybe is no a suicidal letter but for how long is going to stop ?  that the question