Before I Killed Myself



Today is the day Imma do it. I woke up with those thoughts and immediately started planning my last day. I go get my supplies and shove it into my pockets. I walk out the door with my backpack on, my supplies in my pockets. When I walk into school, I smile and wave at people. Even the ones I don't know so that it seems normal for me to do so. I'm going to do it at lunch time, just so I don't worry anybody. 1st hour goes by, then 2nd and 3rd. Finally it's lunch time. I hurry myself to the bathroom without going to get food. Once I get in there, I check the stalls to make sure nobody was in them. I take out the aspirin and benadryl and start counting 50 of each. Before I head into the stall i look at myself in the mirror, "See you on the other side." I say. I go in and take 10 pills at a time. I feel all woozy from the drugs. I sway side to side, the room swirling around in my vision. Dark flashes close in as i close my eyes. I hear someone scream, people running in and out of the door. I smiled for the last time that day...

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This poem is about the day that will be their last.

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Written on January 19, 2022

Submitted by Ghostgirl101 on January 19, 2022

Modified on March 05, 2023

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