Institution

Memorized by hate, I lye awake in this place. Holes in my heart, physical pains. Chest aching, I don't like to be bothered. Serounded by strangers, ppl approach me all seeking answers. Youth to old, love to home. Lost and alone, how am I to aid these souls as I am unable to plz my own. Every move,every angle...shooting stars, falling angels. Make a wish praise a saviour, acknowledge there grace finding pleasure in every ounce of pain they gave us.. this time is tough, this time is rough..I'm fighting a loosing battle.. I'm here standing alone, but loyalie I go to war with God...you won't even help me up when I fall, selfish... When I'm around, you want peace love and closure...when I'm gone, my love is no longer good enough for you, you love no one but yourself.... Remain selfish, this love has taught me well..full of love with no love felt...no love left to give, I've killed Cupid, pouring gasoline on the flames of hell...send me a blessing God. Send a simple grace... Show me you love me... Two broken hearts, you can not trust I cannot trust you....you want me to love you, I don't know how to love, scared of love I'm scared of love to... All the times I've walked away I know that I've hurt you..don't forget you've done things and I hurt to... My only wish was to love you -Joshua Steven 10-15-19