I do, for you

I Do For You

You cannot live fully without understanding to some degree what you’ve done in life. The good and bad. Sometimes it is the good that crucifies you. It does this because you don’t ever see it coming. I have been several times reminded that one another go together hand in hand.
 
For even when you feel you’ve done good, rarely does it mean the same to someone else. Incomprehensible is how others feel about your actions.

Oh, how I would LOVE to educate the stupid geese you’ve infected with your truth. But I will not deface you as you’ve done to me. I won’t stoop that low.

But still, I say you can’t fully love something without understanding the hint of a beating heart that’s able to understand hate.

So you’ve felt my unconditional love, made me the call when you’re truly scared, and you need my version of a bad mutha fucka to save you. This is for you. I can be the hated (evil, villainous) person you feel you need to hate.

Speaking of Saving….

Sometimes it just gets old, sometimes it’s the life you see before you and realize you’ve done all you can do. Saved that person from a monster of a person they didn’t even realized was real, or Being the person they can turn to even though they’ve crossed and burned every bridge they’ve crossed. Really it’s ok. When they feel they require another bridge, that’s right, you guessed it. I’ll build it for them, even at great expense to myself. Because I’ll be the person you need me to be. No matter the cost to my already tainted soul.  Just take what you need from me like a hole punch, or a platter of cookies. You want one, just take it from me. I’ll be ok.

You see, I, for one, have had many stories. In some versions I’m the hero, while for the same reasons I’m the villain in other people's stories. That’s ok. I’ve been told my whole life I’m only good for reproducing and hard labor. ( that’s the 1st time I saved you from him)

Although the hardest thing I’ve ever done is allow someone to hate me because if you channel all your hate on me then you’ll give other people a chance. If I can’t do anything else for you, I can do that. I’ll let you hate me, if in the long run it makes you happy because that’s all I want for you. I have broad shoulders and can bear the weight of it. Sometimes that’s all you can do for them. And that’s ok too.


Latasha Jones