"World of my sad heart ache"

Why do I feel this way torn from the evil world of hate We should not have to suffer any longer
Please God why do I have to live this way in sadness all days my  life in this white chair of mine with stains of my life on it
How I wish I had a home of my own and a man here with to cuddle my lonley nights away and tell him sweet things in his ears just cover my whole body into his and feel the wormth of his skin on me
The beast in me is getting stronger than ever before the red horse will take me away into the sleepless night of the nights darkness days I never felt so sad and hurt that no one came to see how I loved or want to see me in my dreams
Oh how lonley am I I can wait another millons tears for him to return to me but they all say that but they never show up to see me as I wait day and night they seem far away to my lonley tears falling in my bed of sickness and sorrow I'll die of a torn heart into until I once more dream in the dark of nightshade lamps in the glowing light
Please take me home I can't bare of this life no more so sad of people who hurt in there minds I'll draw my way to heavens Gates