I DON'T DESERVE YOU

If I am to be real with you,
I do not deserve being seen around you,
Believe me I really am trying to be good,
The heavens can see through me, for I am bad at being good.

I am scared of being seen for who I truly am,
I really am a beast but I appear calm,
What a vain way of rolling through life,
I just can't be caught off guard, for that has been my way of staying alive.

I love you but love ain't really enough,
I would never let you walk down my lane for they really are rough,
Do not hold on to me dear, I really am tough,
I am on a plane to hell, dear my mind has gone off.

The best gift you'd ever receive is a moment without me,
You gotta look past the love and focus more on living life without me,
I really wish I am somewhat caught up for this,
As bad as it may seem, I just have to do this.

Girls hate on the entire clan of the good guys they say,
That was what they said, but I wouldn't stop wondering why you choose to stay,
I do not deserve an ounce of your love my dear,
I played dead for a while because I was chased by a deer.

I wonder how guys like me get  hooked with girls like you,
I flooded the gates of hell, for I am like a legend down there,
I plundered hell with my prowess, I beckoned unto them to stay far away from you,
I truly wish i ain't so bad at being good, that has long been the reason for me being here.

I hate going back in time but I guess I arrived not on time,
I hate being this kinda guy who need not spend a dime,
I am dangerous girl, I only can get you an heart attack,
I just gotta stay down for the fear of being attacked.

I love you that was why I had to come up with this piece,
You really need your peace girl, i would not like you to be left without em,
You really can get through life without me girl, I'll like you to enjoy the peace,
I do not deserve your love girl, I just gotta walk past em.

@The_Undaunted_Pen.