Feeling insecure?

I was 13 when I started hating my body,
I hated the way I looked and how it made me feel,
But I made it seem as if it wasn't a big deal,
I cried out many nights,
Hoping for a reply,
But all I received was silence,
My mind was my own prison,
Then I started to vision myself in a new body with a new face,
It was like I was being replaced,
I remember seeing a group of pretty girls who called themselves ugly,
How can I love my body if these girls don't?
Tears streaming down my face,
I remember feeling worthless and feeling all dazed,
Praying for someone to help me change by body, mind, and ways,
Even my words,
To have the curves this society worships,
And purchase the things I need to fit in but then again make me stand out,
But not for the clout that everyone gives,
For the simple fact that when i make eye contact with someone beautiful i'll fit in,
But after praying I got no answer,
When I started high school I realized i'm all that matters,
From the top of my head down to my feet and toes,
I see that my body won't change with Prayers and hopes,
These tears may fall but I will not,
And if I do i'll stand back up and not give up,
And won't cover up the things that make me, me,
And you will see who I was meant to be,
At a certain degree I guess id say I love me,
As you should you,
Instead of crying in the mirror,
I smile cause I see myself clearer,
I don't have to be pretty to be beautiful,
As long as i'm not as usual,
I found my style, that I've been searching for,
 for a while,
I have no more toxic friends,
I told them this is the end,
 if only you could see your worth,
When you sleep tonight,
Hope that bright light shines and gives you the confidence you deserve,
To love your body as I do mine,
Stop letting people push you down or leave you behind,
We are not defined by people's opinions you are defined by your decisions,
You do what your voice tells you,
Make the choice that brings you Joyce,
Live your best life because it's the only one you got,
Forget the risk take the fall,
If it is what you want then it's worth it all,
Its now or never,
So become the Heather everyone is dying to be,
So no more crying,
It's all you now,
Allow yourself to push the people away that are trying to tear you down,
Don't let that crown fall,
It's on your head for reason, embrace it,
Let people know the new you,
Tell them to enjoy the view just from a distance,
That you don't need the assistance no longer,
That this is the stronger you,
The confident you,
That your not an ornament,
When you fall you don't shatter,  
Tell them goodbye,
It's time to go,
That you need a break from this lifelong headache,
Focus on yourself for awhile,
Delete your old profile,
Start again,
Find some kind of style,
Make sure to add the smile,
Even if its been a while,
I promise it looks amazing,
Almost breathtaking,
 if your old friends start to talk,
Tell them to take a walk,
Don't give them the satisfaction of winning,
Cause this is only the beginning…