Silent Screams

When I’m alone there is something broken
And I fall into a sadness so sweet that it engulfs me
I look in the mirror and I don’t like what I see
And the tears always fall when I’m falling asleep
And I miss something that doesn’t exist.

I am depressed I have been for a while
But I can still find the light, I can still smile
Can’t you bear my silent screams?
They are so loud that they echo in my dreams.

Behind this face that carries a smile
Lies a dark road that goes on mile after mile
My silent screams have been going on for years
But it always falls on so many deaf ears.

How can I explain this so people understand this?
It’s like walking around in a suffocating black mist
It’s holding onto happiness like you hold water in your hands
It just trickles through your fingers and disappears into the sands.

I can’t explain how this feels; it’s so extreme
So I say “I’m fine” to cover my silent screams.