Lo-[st,ve]

What did I do to lose you
What the reason is, I don't have a clue

How did I lose your beautiful eyes
And the smile that lit up my sky
What did I say that sent you away
Can you please tell me why

How did you get so far from my heart
Without me becoming aware
What did you see inside me
That I never knew was there

I am afraid to love, and yet I love you.
My fear is like a wall I walk right through.
The wall is there, and yet it doesn’t stop me.
I need it still, and yet I still need you.

I love you as a valley loves
The river through its fields,
I need you as the moon requires
The sun to make it shine,
I love you as a hawk loves air,
Or a sailor loves the sea,  
But tell me one thing,
Do you love me?

Love has obstacles enough, world says:
Why add to them the obstacle of race?
Two backgrounds so diverse, they can’t share one space.
But I BELIEVE there are other ways..
After all life is difficult yet full of grace.

Lastly,

I don’t know how we got into these fights.
After them I looked back at the conversations
More shocked than hurt, as when a light plane crashes,
Slanting numb through strange, unearthly lights.
Oh, how I wish I could get off that plane
Rushing to its rendezvous with tears!
Rage is but a mask for my shy fears.
Yet I would die before I caused you pain