Who Am I?

They say it is never
Black & White,
So shades come in gradient
Only when you allow life
to come in light.

I have always believed that,
Life is meant to be shared
Nothing is constant in this world.
Nothing is intended to be
Handled or celebrated alone.

One day, Off she went,
In the middle of the night,
Right after the day was all blown out.
Without even a second thought,
She felt like she's
Broken in pieces
That no one understands.

As, She spent her last years,
Going round & round
Searching for the meaning of life
Hoping to find some clarity to
What's on her mind.

Secrets of the Nile,
she truly holds...
Endless fears,
Truly occupies her thoughts.

Days & Nights pass by,
People come & go all the time
Yet she wonders what went wrong
or even, what went right?

One day she stands still,
And time kept ticking as it is
She looked around, seeking help
but unfortunately,
the word didn't reflect a thing
And their eyes,
didn't even blink.

So helpless she felt,
Tired with feelings worn out,
Speechless & firece,
She spent the night
Drowning in her own tears
Wishing that her pain, might simply disappear.

But the gap she felt inside
kept growing night after night,
specially when she got disappointed
from the closest of many
And broken, from the specials.

By then she realized,
It is all a maze of viciousness
And the only constant in it
Is her own self which she lost
all along the way, seeking it out
through relations, friendships & others

She stood back up,
Still hollow on the inside,
Still wondering, who am I?
and what message am I delivering
in this life?
How am I able to lonely survive,
When nothing tastes complete,
And her dreams seem
out of reach.

How am I able to breathe,
When with my specials
I feel like a Queen.
But the thought of them,
Seems like a cloudy dream,
every time I get closer
& indulge in my own thoughts,
It fades out & disappears?

It sounds like silly bunch of dreams,
Being decorated by
People who understand,
Forgive, Advice back & give,
People who see through
into you.
But are they true?

I have no clue,
And still in the middle of this
I wonder, Who Am I?