Agonizing emotional pain.



You're plaguing every single moment of my life, now that I've casted you away.

Because deep down, I know what I still feel, and it's something I wouldn't say.

But I know I still love you, even if it and myself is overly damaged.

Through this inner filth do these emotions I still rummaged.

I'm just not okay, because I lost something more than a partner.

I lost hopes, dreams, and promises, things that were strong before.

But now I'm lost while you're clear, and that's just not fair.

Why is it always me that has to suffer, and how can you watch as if you don't care?

Leaving you for good has been the hardest thing I had to do so soon, and I can't be at peace.

It seems no matter what I do, I can never truly have a release.

I'm so beyond fucked up and it doesn't matter to anyone, I'm just sludge.

A mass that exists, yet has no reasons, I'm left for all to judge.

I hate that you've made me feel this way.

I hate that there wasn't more you could say.

I hate that there were so many secrets in the rain.

I hate that I'm the one in pain.

I just wanted someone to call my own, and you were supposed to be that one.

Now here we are, separated and from you I run.

I hurt so god damn bad, deeper than what I can really feel

I'm really alive, yet I don't feel alive anymore, this is so fucking unreal.

It's cruel that you've made me feel so low and my eyes a darker hue.

But it's more cruel that I know I can't deny that I still love you.

About this poem

One of many poems I've written about the pain I've felt from a break up.

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Written on October 12, 2021

Submitted by DiveIntoFeels on November 06, 2021

Modified by DiveIntoFeels on November 06, 2021

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Scheme A A X X X X B B C C D D A A E E F F G G H H
Closest metre Iambic octameter
Characters 1,415
Words 291
Stanzas 22
Stanza Lengths 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1

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