I remember when I was young

I Remember when I was young Barbie dolls, stuffed toys and toy gun Chocolates, chips and bubble gum I can have whatever I want having some laughter having some fun didn't care about anything or anyone, life hit when when I turned 15 that's when I face some difficulties He came into my life when I was just a little girl
I was happy and young And then he changed my world mother being abused all bruised Where do I begin to explain the beating father wasn't there to protect us left my brothers and sister in the car at night and neglected us mum asked him to take the kids but rejected us I thought it was all a dream living a life of comfort and peace realised it wasn't as it seamed the words he said to my mother wasn't pleasant to me it cut me so deep trying to protect her from harm instead he slapped me across the face and pushed me to the side not expecting it from him He really hurt me that night And I didn't know what to do cops would come to our house every night I thought it would all end till we packed our stuff and moved to Melbourne you see life is a test we will face some difficulties we should stay strong and do our best These troubles in life are just to prepare for more tests, more trials and burdens to bear, I didn't know my close relatives would be so cruel Standing in self-hatred,drowning in my tears.Looking back on my life,
what I've been through the past 13 years wishing somehow things would change,praying for a way Same old crap just another day,I know none of this is how it's really supposed to be.
I try to be strong,even though I feel so weak Feel like just giving up but I won't accept that level of defeat mum have been so strong raised us all by herself all along without a father who would love us and make us feel happy however You will never know the feeling Of losing the person you need the most To laugh and cry and love you Instead of making you feel like a ghost I've moved on with my life
Without you by my sideMy pain has kept so long I'm telling you how I feel inside In a way I want to thank you
Because of you I'm strong just wanted you to know I didn't turn out hoping one day you know what you have done wrong.