Letter to My Lord

Letters to My Lord
I faintly remember the times I used to live without you its be so long
And I have felt ALONE but never without you know that I know that
I’ve need you so much in my lifetime its natural for me to know your there unconditionally, always finding you, you there when I’m ready, always for me
 I realize how blessed I am for that very gift, to seek you & to find you, no matter how many times or how long it took me to crawl out of hell at my wits end to reach your love, to be home, safe, redeemed, whole again, fueled by your divine power
 Gracias Senor, thank you for forgiving me time & time again,
I apologize for the delay, all of them… every single time
I still try to understand why I insist on living otherwise
Knowing the whole time, I did it, still do it to myself, choosing to live dead, empty, lonely and dark, angry, rebelling against the everything that saves me time over time
You Lord; FOREVER You
Knowing that the longer I stay in my ways instead of your, the longer I sabotage myself I stay in despair, in destruction
 I cause myself this pain, this agony, the unbearable void in the pit of my heart is all because of me
 I see that that was all me, my choices, riches, my spoils not yours all turned to ashes on my heart poured by the devil
Yet always I rise, stronger, more than a phoenix
Always Your Daughter…I Love You, Thank You!