how do i feel?

how do i feel?
is a good question.
somedays am ok
most days am not.
why am a so messed up?
a always wonder why.
feeling of lonliness and invisible.
unhappy within myself.
feeling like am trapped,
trapped within the real me.
how do i set myself free?
free from all this pain.
feeling not wanted,
especially by the ones i love the most.
why do i think this way?
why do i feel this way?
feeling of been pushed out.
by those close.
feeling like im a bad person
a dont understand why.
feeling empty and lost,
what direction do i take?
theres a choice.
but what one do i take.
mirrored reflection,
who is she staring at me?
a dont no she,
maybe a will one day.
overthinking over takes me.
how do i control my feelings?
how do i control me?