MY CONFESSION

You are the meanest person I've ever met.
You always insult me and that's your best.
Even so. . that makes me happy
Because that's how you spend time with me.

You are always busy.
I understood that especially when you ignore me.
Your life is your job and your only love
That oftentimes you are a snob.

My happiness is just shallow.
Talking to you will made my day glow.
You are like my energizer
That gives me life and power.

I hate to admit the fact
That I am admiring you a lot.
Even if you are not doing anything,
You are some kind of a thing.

I've been too attached to you
Even if I never planned to.
Now it's gone to deep
And it makes me hard to keep.

Do you know that I hate you
Because you seem don't care for my feelings?
Do you know I hate myself too
Because I am hopeful for nothing?

I have accepted that I am not your type.
That idea gave me a hype.
How I wish you've never been so nice.
I have believed in my fantasies that are all lies.

I thought you are enjoying my company.
What made you get tired of me?
I know I'm acting so wrongly.
The problem is only within me.

When you are in habit to talk to someone daily, 
A day without talking to him feels so lonely.
The day is kind of boring.
And it's upsetting to know he is online but ignoring.

I hope one day I won't give you any attention
And that I have fully controlled of my emotion.
I shouldn't have any feeling to you anyway.
So, is it better to stay away?

You don't have to be so rude
But you don't need to be nice and good.
It's better to tell me honestly,
Have I been annoying you consistently?

You do not know I'm hurting.
You are too insensitive not noticing.
I don't want to force myself any longer
Because I believe you don't have any care.

Tell me what should I do.
Should I stop chasing you?
I've got to move on
Because I cannot hold this on.

I overthink, I over care, I over trust, I over commit.
And in return I over hurt.
Funny how I overreact that I want us to be over
When in fact we are never together.

I always been left and pained.
Another relationship that has come to an end.
I've learned again from this experience
That makes a lot of sense.

Be sure to have the right feeling to the right one
So that time and effort is worth spend on.
Our life is so precious to waste on the wrong person.
Our time is not forever, it's like limited edition.

Not all girls are full of dramas.
Most girls are vocal in their dilemmas.
Like I say what I mean
Better listen, you might not hear me again.

Whatever life brings, we'll never really know.
Maybe this is what fate had brought me.
I just have to accept the way it should be.
Live with it and go with the flow.

Most important lesson I've ever learned.
Attachment to someone without any commitment
Is like a suicidal attempt.
Love yourself because if nobody can, only you can.

This is my confession.
You don't have to give any opinion.
Praying for my peace of mind.
Let's chill, I need to unwind.