If only

Afraid to close my eyes even for a moment
The fear of unknown haunts me ever
Staying awake brings nothing but the nightmares
Turning on the living grave, I die a thousand times
Desperate to hold onto someone
My love, I wish, if only you were here.

When I wake up in the morning
Find a question mark staring at my face
Am I ready to face the world
Or wanna wake up to the world for the last time
I fold my hands and cover my eyes
Hoping someone will be there to say, I care
To hunt the demons, to make me live again
My love, I wish, if only you were here.

As the sun rises up in the sky, torturing the souls
I am forced to walk, looking for a shelter
the deserted roads and the quietness of the noon
Scare me to the point of helplessness
Like fallen leaves carried nowhere by the wind
I wander in the streets of oblivion
Cherishing a feel, I might find you somewhere
To cry in your arms, to let go of everything
My love, I wish, if only you were here.

When the sun wears itself out
Purple evening spreads its wings
I see people returning home, walking... rushing…
Lost in the crowd with nowhere to go
I feel the blood freezing in the veins
‘coz in the chilling deserts of loneliness
I’ve become a stranger to me
To walk me home, to take me home
My love, I wish, if only you were here.

The darkness, following the evening, envelopes the existence
I find my self yet again at the cross roads
I trace my way back to the confines of the four walls
As the stillness grows and silences breaks
I head nothing but the sound of approaching doom
To take me in your arms, to sing a lullaby
To make me sleep, to make me dream again
My love, I wish, if only you were here.