A revelation

overwhelmed, i kept pushing towards the
99th percentile
maybe there i can find self-satisfaction

controlled by the horrors of sustained underperformance-
a symbol of mediocrity

only when i step out of this hierarchical
system,
do i realize the mortality of it
years of knowledge and obedience leaving me but a moment of satisfaction

realized at a young age that, that which the world idolizes,
is not something to be pursued

All you need can be found inside yourself.