Better without me

All this pain I feel inside
All these tears I just can't hide
So many emotions tearing me apart
Where do I go, where do I start?
Cutting myself to rid some of the pain
Leaving scars reminding me of that day
Regretting decisions I have made
Yet doing the same damn thing again today.
I want to run, to run away
Never look back
And forget all the pain.
I need some drugs to make my mind not race.
I need a solution, to make an escape
I'm afraid if I don't get it right soon
Then tomorrow may not come for me
Contemplating suicide this very evening
Everyone would be better without me