words of a mind

so I sit here and I think to my self what is  love everyone has there  own thoughts on what it is and what the word means and me I think I would have to feel it to understand it
see  being me is really hard because I don't feel anything if it don't have to do with  some kind of pain and that is the real sad part I can feel that but I don't really want to
so I try to stay want from things that I could like because then I will have to lose them or I will break them and then they never want to be around me and that hurts the damn
most and if I am being real here I don't think I want to feel anything else because people don't think enough now a days and that is so sad because they want to know after they
have been broken and left in a lot of little pieces and with me I will cry and feel it and then get the hell over it and I don't feel anything else about it  it sounds weird
and a bit crazy but it is what it is and someone told me that when you can use that term and know its the truth for you you are not broken any more you can think about the thing
that broke you and be just fine because you can know laugh about it and it don't hurt and that may sound crazy to some of people but to other people like me it sounds like they
are not alone wondering if they are weird or crazy or if they should even be  here well I am proud to say i am different and I wouldn't give it up for anything different but to
answer everyone's  stupid question love is when you can be who you are and that person is fine with who comes out of you and that will be there even when things get bad in can
be with you when shit hits the fan and they can laugh with you because they know that they had fun with you when they where doing the shit that now is all over the two of you
because it was fun doing and after it was  all did and do it was fun because it was with you .