My Wall

My Wall

My wall
The safe space that I hide
There, you don't exist
And I go on with my life

My wall is impenetrable
It can withstand a strong wind
Yet its permeable
It’s where I decide who I let in

My wall has a purpose
Resolving my troubles and fears
 I deflect  
It's a trick, I learned in my early years

My wall keeps people out
I feel protect from my foes
Unfortunately, I become a prisoner
Captive within the confines of a mind you don't know

My wall has consequences
Sometimes I feel locked inside
I suffocate in isolation
Relationships get fractured in my life

The wall that I built
To provide shelter from my storm
Creates a temporary reprieve
An illusionary deviation from the norm

For those who have built a wall
Life is never quite the same
You see, we get to hold all the cards
In a dysfunctional game that we play

My wall is strong
Impenetrable some may say
Just don't take it personal
It’s a trust issue, that’s made me this way