Need you

You’re so contagious, I can’t get enough, you infected my soul, sniffed out what was left to take, then you said enough! Baby you Left a wake of pain, shattering dimensions unseen, you left me , heart broken and suffering!
I was trying to stay present, now I’m looking in the mirror hollering , I’m screaming,” How could you leave me like this? How you could you walk away and feel no remorse, no shame?” I would’ve died for you, past lives till the present, I sacrificed myself to see you well, I always placed first, you’re a Queen, put you on a pedestal; a spirit unparalleled , a place I wanted to call home, A place where my heart would dwell! Rebuilding what was taken from us, the mutiny, taboo modern day scrutiny, fighting against all odds, this was for you and me!
This was a kick to my nuts, stomach woozy, heart stopped, I can’t think or breathe, my mind feeling like I’m going through a shell shock, this PTSD gots a hold of me, I’m waiting for your return, but I got to let go, I need to be free! I won’t let you ruin me! You don’t know my agony, every cell is in pain, your apathy is a cancer slowly killing me! Spreading to this mortal heart, working its way to my brain, losing all control, mentally strangled, suffocating!
I’m man, I’m a God, I’m a freaking king! Radiation from the bomb you dropped may be eating my cells, I have a cure, it’s called,”Realizing my potential, adapting to this shit, evolve to a space and place that you will never be!” Ahhhh!!!
Screw that, I need you next to me! I want to lie, and not say,”Thank you for your time, you’ll always have a part of me!” This trigger bothers me, a story I’ve dealt with for so long, this time it won’t get the best of me! Whether you and I were meant to be, a time and place fate and destiny; you were supposed to wake up to know! The Gods tried to put you,where you were meant to be! This is where you will feel hell, be in eternal agony, as me and my Queen build an empire bettering humanity; you’ll live in your lies, family ties, ancestral stories, pay for your crimes! I’m a Dragon, a fighter, I’m the sorcerer supreme, Annunaki in my blood, I’m Walking God, creating stuff, shifting this realm, I’ve drowned in acid baths, survived all the depths of hell! I’m going to smile, I’m going to breathe, transcending myself, I’ll wear the mask, I’ll fake this smile, I’ll die for a while, callous slowly, relocate my soul, let the darkness take hold! In the Next lifetime Whenever that may be; I’ll do this again and again, waiting for you to come home to me.