I'm Fine

Seriously I'm fine
Although there is this voice that tells me everyone's life would be just fine without me in it
but then again who doesn't have one of those, am I right?

I'm fine...
Although I can't help to look around and see everyone happy and joyful and I do my best to join in but at the slighest sign of rejection my soul sinks into a deep hole without the slightest sign of light
but that is normal right?

I mean it, I'm fine....
Although there is this force that drags me into loneliness and makes me see how no matter what any one does to show me love all I see is rejection and I am forced to walk alone in the middle of a crowd,
but everyone goes through that, right??

I am fine, seriously....
Although there is times that I want to scream for help I want someone to help me get out of this hole that I am in but everytime that I try to scream words just won't come out and I am stuck,
but of course everyone knows what im talking about, right??

I am fine..... seriously I am fine
Although I don't want to be a bother to anyone so I hide in my pain, drown in the river of my sorrow which I dont even know when it started flowing but when I least expected it, it overcame me and it acts like quicksand because the more that I try to swim to get in the more I drown. And I am stuck in between two struggles, one the wish that people would see me struggling and would go out of their way to help me but the other is the fact that I dont want to bother everyone and I dont want anyone to pity me. I dont want anyone doing out of their way just for me
but everyone goes through that right?

I am fine....or at least some day i will be