Soliloquy

Well...
 I'm wise to,
 I have knowledge,
morals
and self-respect.
 I stand by what I stand for,
I hold my values high...
and will die to protect.

I own my mistakes,
hold myself to account.
 Always me,
I don't fit in cause
Uh,
I stand out.

 I'm a fine mess,
 I know who I am
Tho
not where I'm going.
Traditional
unorthodox,
stubborn...
but I'm growing.

 I love me,
 but i...
personally slander.
I break my own rules,
 with glitz
And the glamour.
 Ive been loved,
abandoned,
thought of
and accused.  
Educated,
 underestimated,
 built up
and abused.  

Saving a life
or taking one
 do both with a smile.
 Shattered...
but not broken,
a survivor with style.

I'm a fucking MASTERPIECE,
 that's...
 not on display.
My head head may be lost
so...
 my heart leads the way.

In this dog eat dog world
 I eat at the table.
 I could be off balance
and still remain stable.
 The rough that made the diamond,
 that...you... can... not... hold.
 Every time
 I'll cross the line,
and never leave the threshold.
 
A breath of fresh air,
 toxic and pure.
 Synesthetic,
eccentric,
 a sickness
and it's cure.
Psycho and calm,
neurotic and freed.
 Majesticlly  
Autophobic,
poignantly restrained
 I proceed.   

Fearlessly frightened
with a diligent soul.
 I can play the part
and not know the role.
 Undoubtedly philosophical,
 Ya...
I think in strange ways.
 With unfathomable potential, relating to strays.

 A gypsy with roots,
resilient so I adjust.
But when I look in the mirror,
 my head is held high
but...
all I feel is...
disgust.