The punishment

What is the punishment for falure  to live in a ring of hells. To see her body limp in front of you as a rebuke for a trust that was complete and unlimted. To rage and be made at yourself until the flesh burned away and you burnig and raging at yourself none can touch you least they be burned in your raging grief instead of eyes in your head flames flowing around your head.  What punishment is enough
put a rope around my neck and it burns before im hanged. Shoot me and bullets melt in my rage at myself.  What punishment is due me . I confess my  fale you can judge and i will accept . But you cannot punish me as much i punish myself . I faled her watch me burn.