I'm caught up in you!

I had never thought of this,
I dawned adoring you
your sereneness, your touch, your chuckle, your voice
I thought this is infatuation
But, I adored your flaws too.
Love had already outspread its roots
And I realized 'I'm utterly into you!'
Now, I am lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.

Love is heavenly, but this was poisonous too.
I made a mistake & it muddled me utterly.
You were ruthless, nonetheless  I loved you
I was apoplectic, but actually cared for you
I was obdurate, but only to be with you
Maybe I nagged you, and you tolerated me
I am lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.

My love was irrepressible and hysteric.
I'm prodigal in case of sentiments.
Without you, the world is bleak.
I can't forgo you.
I wish you've an epiphany of my love.
Please don't at least disdain me
'Cause still, I'm lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.

Whenever I met you, I went into a frenzy.
I wanted to spend dawn to dusk with you;
Wanted to see you every dawn beside me;
Wanted to be with you in your every hurdle.
I am lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.

There were jubilant and serene days.
My ownself was alive!
In tryin' to get you, I lost myself.
Now, what's left?
They say "Time heals all.",
but no one says "That time takes everythin' from you!".
I've gone deranged in the process.
Still, I am lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.

This is so excruciating and intricate.
I'm touchous & I don't know how to be less of it.
I still get formidable omens;
Comes every day & distort me again & again
This love is a guest, I welcomed & then can't get rid of.
I am lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.

I accepted;
You're not mine,
Your insolent comportment,
Not everything I wanted is made for me,
Somethings we can't change,
Fate has written a tragic ending; I accepted.
I reckon I should end things before it could get any worse
Nevertheless, I'm lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.

Clouds of desolation circles me & horrifies me.
'Am I perpetually in this dark?'
This pain is ceaseless.
I want tranquility.
I want revival.
God, emanate me from this mayhem of sentiments.
Why this purgatory to a fanatic admirer of love?
Nonetheless, I'm lingering yonder;
I'm caught up in you.